Thursday, June 12

I miss L'Abri. It's strange how simple it is to form connections in a totally other part of the world. Can we say modern marvels? It's so easy to get from here to there, and I think we suffer in the end because of it. Here I am in Michigan, with part of myself still in England. How strange and modern of a predicament. Who am I that I feel the right or privilege to go where I want when I want, even when it's utterly impractical? And since when does it seem like a good idea to spread myself and my heart all over the globe so flippantly. I think it's part of what brought me home early. I was beginning to wake up to this strange phenomenon of how travel and distance can affect the soul. I don't wish I hadn't gone. I don't wish I stayed. I simply reflect on the unexpected and usually hidden effects on my self, which I only now, at this point in my life am turning my attention to. Michelle and Sarah, remember the other day when we talked about the idea of running away and around from where we have our roots? I think that's what I'm feeling now. I feel that it's good and fitting, as creatures, for humans to be home. It's not a matter of avoiding challenges or adventures or keeping a narrow world view. In fact it's more difficult to stay I think. It's more risky, more of the heart to be lost when we invest where we are and have a mind to stay. But in the end and on the journey we are who we are most when we are where we belong. When we are home. That's how I feel at Western Sem. Thank you God. Love you all at L'Abri. I miss you. The house, the walks, yes. But mostly just you. And now that part of my heart is there, it's there to stay.

7 comments:

Sam and Darcie Gutierrez said...

true inner freedom is to want what you already have. To be fully present where you are

Sam and Darcie Gutierrez said...

Also, with the Prodigal Son story in mind...
we sometimes travel to "distant countries" looking for what we already had at home. But sometimes the traveling gives us the eyes to see what we couldn't see if we had stayed.

Rachel Bush said...

wise sage.. What I wonder is what happens to those of us who never discover that home is home. What happens to the traveler who stays a traveler? And what happens to the home that she never returns to?

Could we really not see what we have unless we travel far away? Is there another road to gratitude?

Rachel Bush said...

are you preaching on the Prodigal Son on Sunday?

Anonymous said...

Rachel...this was beautiful. Simply poetic really. I look forward to a cup of java now that the bday celebration is done. Soon? much love and thanks again for coming to the party!

Evonne said...

oh friend....i'm SOOOOOO glad you're back in Holland!!!! :-D

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